I’ve had a whole week to see if I feel like I’m doing what I should be and I still don’t know. Its very strange to realize I have no idea what I’m doing with my life, but from the outside it looks like I know exactly where I’m headed.
I didn’t even realize that tomorrow was a holiday, until reminded by KMH. None the less I am now PISSED I don’t have this holiday off. really i just absolutely do not want to work tomorrow….or maybe ever.
1-work out 2-go to grocery store 3-plan weekly dinners 4-read educational book 5-laundry 6-clean apartment 7-enjoy BEAUTIFUL weather (outside biz)
8-watch DVR shows/netflix
crossed out doesn’t mean completed it means what is ACTUALLY going to happen. i am a disgusting disgusting person inside on this 77 degree day.
I am literally having a quarter-life (hopefully not mid-life) crisis at the age of 26. I mean I literally have spent this day questioning what I am doing with my life, what I have done with my life, and what I want to do with my life, and I am not really sure I ever really reached any sort of answer/I don’t know if it’s possible to…..i hate this/feel sick…..damn you free time to think.
I don’t know why I can’t seem to balance my life. I feel like I will never grow up….And why does it happen that everything goes along fine for a little while, and then once one thing starts to bobble, everything and every part of your life becomes a mess. I try so hard to be a mature grown up, but it seems that I end up short in one area, then another, then another…..a never ending cycle. Ugh. I’m frustrated.
I mean I am usually not right, but I have been getting teary eyed at the strangest things….things that actually, usually make me want to vom in my mouth. hmmm not the monthly visitor either, am I getting soft in my old age? Most likely not…I’ve never been too sweet.
2-Home Alone 2
…..will be updating as I remember/decide….
1-For the third night in a row I woke up at 3am after only sleeping for 4 hours, even after taking an ambien and muscle relaxant
2-my chin and shoulders are really itchy, I mean REALLY itchy. I have resorted to using the sharp side of a velcro piece I found to scratch it.
3-I finally went to the doctor yesterday and started taking my medicines, but I still can not breathe, have ear pain, and no voice.
4-I was very careful and took my time painting my nails last night (yes, I actually tried and didn’t get it all over) and this morning I noticed that one of my nails has a black fuzz thing actually painted on, under my top coat. fail.
I am sure this list will get longer as I actually start my day, instead of just watching TV from my bed while I can’t sleep. I am also sure I will find at least 4 more things that will annoy me on my way to the shower.